I’d like to start this post with a cute story and a little known fact about my hubby. He too is trained in Reiki and Karuna Reiki®. So, I guess if we’re being truly official (of course) he is Reiki Daddy. This amazing and sweetly insightful man wanted to learn and grow right alongside me so we started our training together. Now comes a possibly more known fact: Reiki Daddy is also a baseball player. Although he is not playing professionally and/or consistently any longer, we never miss his college Alumni game.
Last year’s game happened about 2 weeks after we finished our Reiki II training. All was per usual; a beautiful day at the stadium, seeing lots of missed friendly faces, and many hugs and laughs both in the stands and on the field. This was our daughter’s first time to a game and seeing Daddy play. I doubt she knew what was going on, but there was much anticipation when he stepped up to the plate… I had always been a “Nervous Nellie” when watching him play and even though we are now down to one game per year, nothing had changed. So, nervous Reiki Mommy with baby girl on her lap said a silent prayer that all (pleeeaaasseeee) go well, and you’ll never believe what he did. After not playing any ball since the previous Alumni game, Reiki Daddy hit an out-of-the-park home run! Screams, cheers, laughter, shock… None of us could believe it!!!! It was great. Actually more like, pure awesome-sauce.
After the game, while discussing how wonderful that moment was, Reiki Daddy said this, “I Reiki’d myself.” He usually states things pretty simply, so the delivery wasn’t new, but the information was such a catch-me-off-guard surprise. In our Reiki II class we had learned how to send Reiki across distances. These distances can be time (past, present, future events) and/or place. Turns out, Reiki Daddy had been practicing and had sent himself Reiki energy both leading up to the game and also directly to the actual event. Turned out well, if I do say so myself!
The reason I shared this story is because Spirit has been playing that phrase, in my husband’s voice, on repeat in my head since a pretty scary earthquake and quite a few aftershocks jolted us late last week. We live less than a mile from the epicenter, so the rocking and the rolling was strong. But, here’s the thing. I have lived in Southern California my entire life. Earthquakes are nothing new and although rattled, usually I bounce back pretty quickly.
This time though, the fear and anxiety I felt during and even in the days following was all new. The other crazy thing is that this fear caused me to freak about multiple other things. Here is a snap shot of the thoughts in my head (read very quickly and you’ll be close to the repeating loop): What is our safety/evacuation plan? When will I have this house in order? I need to learn how to cook. I should be working harder. Wait, no, I should be focused on and present for my child. I need to take more classes. Why aren’t I exercising more? I need to be/set a healthy example, etc, etc.
I realized that the earthquake and aftershocks caused a ripple effect of “I’m not worthy” thought patterns. This happened because in the moment of something completely and totally beyond my power to prevent or even anticipate, I didn’t know the best thing to do to keep my little one safe. I felt out of control and I am not comfortable in that place. I like order, yes, but mostly, I like to know and believe that I can protect my daughter. But isn’t that how most parents feel? Absolutely. So, what do we do when we start spinning?
I think the lesson here, at least for me, is one of patience and acceptance of myself. Accepting that I am doing all that I can, at any given moment, is (wait for it, wait for it – no lie cringing as I type)… enough. As long as it is coming from a place of LOVE, it is enough. Oh, and the reminder from Reiki Daddy helped too. So, in the end, and in order to help me believe those words I shared above, “I Reiki’d myself, too.”
With Love & Gratitude,